I have been pondering at length lately whether or not to allow my natural hair color to grow in. I am beyond tired of the constant dying, only to have the greys pop through a week or two later. What is it that I am so afraid of? What am I ashamed of? Aging? Ugliness? Because that is truly the fear at the end of it all.. afraid to be looked upon as "less than".
Then I asked myself, who am I dying my hair for? What is this conceived notion of beauty I am desperately trying to cling to? And then... I starting seeing pictures of young ladies dying their hair grey and silver.. wtf?? There are people paying big money to intentionally make their hair look like what I am trying to cover up.
Well hell.. I read a post from a woman in a support group called "Growing Grey Beauty Guide" that says.. "Aging shouldn’t be a dirty word, we shouldn’t try and run from it because it happens to us all. I truly believe the more you try and ‘hold back the years’ the unhappier you become. Fear is a mind killer! I’m all about embracing my age youthfully, naturally and with lashings and lashings of self-confidence." Something about that really hit home with me.
As I am struggling with my post 40 weight, my self-image, my self-esteem, and all of the other selfs which make us miserable.. I think, I'm going to grow this crazy hair out and see if I can discover who I really am underneath.
And as I type this... a friend just tagged me in a Facebook post of this: https://www.facebook.com/rockyourlocks/photos/a.319543871435559.75102.133025596754055/1042810859108853/?type=3&theater
The world has gone mad it seems!
Then I asked myself, who am I dying my hair for? What is this conceived notion of beauty I am desperately trying to cling to? And then... I starting seeing pictures of young ladies dying their hair grey and silver.. wtf?? There are people paying big money to intentionally make their hair look like what I am trying to cover up.
Well hell.. I read a post from a woman in a support group called "Growing Grey Beauty Guide" that says.. "Aging shouldn’t be a dirty word, we shouldn’t try and run from it because it happens to us all. I truly believe the more you try and ‘hold back the years’ the unhappier you become. Fear is a mind killer! I’m all about embracing my age youthfully, naturally and with lashings and lashings of self-confidence." Something about that really hit home with me.
As I am struggling with my post 40 weight, my self-image, my self-esteem, and all of the other selfs which make us miserable.. I think, I'm going to grow this crazy hair out and see if I can discover who I really am underneath.
And as I type this... a friend just tagged me in a Facebook post of this: https://www.facebook.com/rockyourlocks/photos/a.319543871435559.75102.133025596754055/1042810859108853/?type=3&theater
The world has gone mad it seems!